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Search me O God and know my heart

A service for World Mental Health Day, with counsellor and psychotherapist Major Richard Gaudion and the International Staff Songsters of the Salvation Army.

A service for World Mental Health Day, from Kettering Salvation Army Hall. The preacher is counsellor and psychotherapist Major Richard Gaudion. Music includes 'When God comes near' and 'Do not be afraid', sung by the International Staff Songsters of the Salvation Army, directed by Dorothy Nancekievill. Producer: Andrew Earis.

38 minutes

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Sun 10 Oct 2021 08:10

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Please note:

This script cannot exactly reflect the transmission. It may include editorial notes prepared by the producer, and minor spelling and other errors.

It may contain gaps to be filled in at the time so that prayers may reflect the needs of the world, and changes may also be made at the last minute for timing reasons, or to reflect current events.

Hymn 鈥楶raise to the Lord, the Almighty鈥 (Verses 1,3 & 5)聽

Richard: Introduction

Welcome to worship this morning at Kettering Citadel Salvation Army, on what is World Mental Health Day. I鈥檓 Major Richard Gaudion, a Salvation Army officer. Professionally I鈥檓 also a psychotherapist specialising in mental health and well being as part of my work with the Salvation Army鈥檚 counselling service.聽 During this time of pandemic the impact on the mental health of many people, including children and young adults, is a profound challenge for society as a whole. At times it is difficult to know how to respond.

Music, and singing our theology has been an integral part of The Salvation Army since its inception. We鈥檒l be drawing on this heritage this morning as we consider the help faith and music can bring in supporting our mental health and wellbeing.

The International Staff Songsters of The Salvation Army are helping us in our service today. Founded in 1980, the Songsters reach thousands of people right across the UK and around the world presenting words and music inspired by scripture to enhance personal devotions and corporate worship.

As we continue in worship together please join us in prayer.聽

Opening Prayer: (Hilary Bromage)

Bible Reading (1): Psalm 139 vv 1-4., 7-10,23,24 (Martin Davis)

ISS Song 鈥 Still鈥櫬犅犅 Ruben Morgan words and music/arr. Paul Sharman

Richard: That song is a reminder that even in our darkest days the Lord is King, a strong tower, and a place of refuge.

Many of the songs chosen for today were written and composed as a result of challenge or trial. Before we hear our next piece of music.

鈥榃hen God Comes Near鈥, the composer American Salvationist William Himes explains how he and lyricist James Burnie were inspired to write this very personal and challenging song.

Testimony- William Himes

ISS Song. 鈥榃hen God comes near鈥. Major James Birney words/music William Himes music

Prayers: (Rosemary Steadman-Allen)聽

Bible Reading (2): Matthew 11:28-30 (Neil Lacey)

Hymn 鈥楤e still鈥櫬 David J Evans words/music. Thankyou Music/Adm.by Capitol CMG publishing

Richard: Message

鈥淐ome 鈥 take 鈥 learn 鈥.鈥
鈥楯onathan鈥, not his real name, contacted me last year. He works in a care home and shared with me his experience of holding the hand of a resident as they died. For 陆 hr after the death, Jonathan couldn鈥檛 speak to his colleagues because he was so upset. 鈥楳y job is to support others,鈥 he said, 鈥榖ut I can鈥檛 remember the last time I felt well. All I ever hear is my mum鈥檚 voice, 鈥淒on鈥檛 make a fuss,鈥 so I just seem to soldier on.鈥
Added to this, Jonathan鈥檚 mother died during lockdown. He said it was awful, not being able to be with his mother. Jonathan says he hasn鈥檛 really cried yet and is finding it difficult to grieve for his mother. He then said, 鈥業 don鈥檛 feel there is anyone I can tell how bad things are.鈥 He cried a little.聽 We paused.

As a counsellor and psychotherapist, I listen to people daily who may be struggling with their mental health and wellbeing, for all manner of reasons. Why do they come to me? (I often ask myself that question!) They come because they want someone to listen to them, to hear what is happening in their lives. And when someone who is depressed or anxious, or fearful, or traumatised, or feeling suicidal, can enter a space that is just safe enough for them to begin sharing their story, to begin the journey of unburdening themselves, to investigate their lives and process their experiences in a supportive and non-judgmental environment, something happens!

This may be the first time in their life that they鈥檙e able to be transparent, to go to the darkest and most hidden places of their mind. The Old Testament book of Psalms is a wonderful collection of transparency, honesty, of getting it all out!

Earlier we heard read to us selected verses from Psalm 139, probably written by King David. In this most intimate and soul-searching psalm, David acknowledges before God that everything is known to God 鈥 nothing is hidden from him. For some people that may be just too scary to contemplate 鈥 that someone should know everything about them. At the end of the psalm, in verses 23 & 24, David invites and allows God once again to investigate him, and in so doing, David will investigate and learn more about himself. He says to God: 鈥橲earch me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting鈥.

How do you feel about the fact that God knows you inside out, better than you聽perhaps know yourself? Is that a comfort to you, or a source of fear? Perhaps we can hold on to that question as we turn to the New Testament reading from Matthew鈥檚 Gospel Chapter 11. In these three verses, we hear聽 Jesus鈥 invitation: 鈥 鈥淐ome to me 鈥 take my yoke 鈥 learn from me.鈥

颁辞尘别鈥
Jesus is saying 鈥榗ome鈥. The Pharisees and other teachers of the day said 鈥榙o鈥. They heaped on to their people all manner of requirements, laws to uphold, duties to perform, and doubtless people were burdened as a result. I wonder what are the equivalents in today鈥檚 context? The things that burden us and weigh us down? The聽 鈥業鈥檓 not good enough鈥檚, the worries about what others may say, sometimes even self-hatred, lurking depression, the fear of being our true selves?

Jesus doesn鈥檛 heap on more and more burdens 鈥 he says come 鈥 鈥淐ome to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.鈥 Rest from the burden of legalistic requirements that others place on you and also rest from the burdens that you place on yourself.

罢补办别鈥
Secondly, Jesus says take: 鈥淭ake my yoke upon you 鈥︹ In that day, to 鈥榯ake a yoke鈥 meant to become a disciple, to submit to an authority. Jesus promises us that his yoke is easy, meaning it is well-fitting. It will not rub or chafe. If will be a perfect fit for each person.
In coming聽 to Jesus 鈥 he gives us rest.; taking from Jesus 鈥 is a deeper experience of finding rest, that deeper rest of surrender and obedience to one who knows us better than we can know ourselves and loves us better than anyone can love.

尝别补谤苍鈥
Finally, Jesus says learn: 鈥淟earn from me 鈥︹ The first two invitations of 鈥榗ome鈥 and 鈥榯ake鈥 are actions of immediacy. This third invitation to 鈥榣earn鈥 is a process action. Many of us do not enjoy long drawn-out processes. We hope for, and even聽 demand, instant results, ever faster responses, which can lead to a cycle of deeper distress and anxiety.

When people come to me for psychological help they often imagine I will fix them, and fix them immediately. Little do they realise that I will accompany them on their journey through a process of learning. To begin with they may rail against this and share their disappointment and frustration. But as the learning journey continues, their disappointment gradually recedes and their self-belief, their courage, their understanding of their life circumstances grows and takes root. That journey may 鈥 or may not 鈥 involve a deepening of Christian faith, but for some, it does.

Jesus is inviting us to learn more and more about him and his ways. The more we learn about him, the more we trust him, the deeper the peace we experience. This invitation of Jesus to 鈥榗ome to him鈥, to 鈥榯ake from him鈥, to 鈥榣earn from him鈥 wasn鈥檛 just for the people in his hearing. It is an invitation for all people in all ages throughout history 鈥 and the invitation is for us all today. Now! In this very moment!

As we consider this personal invitation of Jesus, the International Staff Songsters are going to sing: 鈥楧o not be afraid鈥, The song conveys the hope we have in a faithful and unchangeable God, who knows us, embraces us, and lifts our heads as he journeys with us moment by moment.

ISS Song 鈥楧o not be afraid鈥櫬燝erard Markland words/ Phillip W J Stopford music

Prayers of intercession:聽 Richard

Will you join with me in the prayer Jesus taught us;聽聽 (The Lords prayer)
Our Father
ALL: who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, The power and the glory
For ever and ever Amen.

Richard: Our closing hymn is a song of praise to the one who does wondrous things, offers His peace and gives us His grace 鈥榥ow thank we all our God鈥

Hymn 鈥楴ow thank we all our God鈥樎 (all 3 verses)聽

Richard: And now a benediction taken from the New Testament letter of Jude .

ISS 鈥極h Love鈥櫬燝eorge Matheson words/ Elaine Hagenberg music

If you need support with mental health & Self-harm,聽help and support is available at聽麻豆约拍 Action Line

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