01.07.02
Moby
- why I took drugs aged 10
The
chart-topping musician Moby reveals in this week's Radio Times that
he dabbled in drugs at primary school to impress his schoolfriends.
The
36-year-old also admits to being intimidated by other celebrities
and has only ever taken one holiday because he gets bored so easily.
Moby
began experimenting with illegal substances aged 10. "It was
hash and pills a friend was given by his sister, who was meant to
be taking them in a mental hospital. It was my way of hanging out
with the cool kids.
"We
drank whatever liquor we could steal from our parents - mostly crème
de menthe - and threw up on each other. It was miserable, but no
one would admit it. I pretty much stopped at 13 because I was scared.
A few years later I became so straight I didn't drink or eat red
meat and was celibate."
Interviewed
in his minimalist loft in Lower Manhattan, Moby is constantly self-deprecating
about his looks and his work. "It comes naturally. Parts of
my low self-esteem are genetic. On my father's side, the Melvilles,
there's a predisposition to angst, depression and melodrama. I want
to control it in myself, but I can't say no to who I am, even though
I wish I could.
"I
even read magazine articles like 'Ten steps to a happier life'.
I'm envious of those who find happiness in regular things, like
holidays. I've only ever taken one - to Barbados in 1996. After
three days I was so miserable I took the first flight home. I'm
bored easily.
"This
is something I've never shared with anyone - all my life I've been
intimidated by public figures. When I read about them in magazines,
I sense their life is better than mine, and one of my goals, now
I'm a public figure, is never to make anyone feel bad about themselves
when they read about me.
"Music
is my way of taking my private demons, dressing them up and making
beauty from them. A lot of artists feel their neuroses suck, but
need them for creativity."
This
interview is taken from the 6 - 12 July issue of Radio Times, on
sale on Tuesday 2.
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