The sisters who
survived the
evil at Lagarie
They are among dozens alleged to have been abused there.
This is their story of survival.
(Warning: Contains distressing themes)
Dressed only in their nighties, three girls climb through the unlocked toilet window of an imposing Victorian mansion and make their way silently across the immaculate lawn.
At the wrought iron gates of Lagarie Children's Ā鶹Ō¼ÅÄ in Rhu, the Montgomery sisters stop briefly and look back at the place which had become their prison.
Any second thoughts about escaping are quickly banished as they close the gates behind them and set off barefoot down the road, guided only by the light of the moon.
Iām running away. Youāre coming too
For middle sister Angela, 10, the building she knows as home reminds her of an asylum. It is big, old and scary-looking, especially at night time. Sheāll be glad to see the back of it, though at this point she doesnāt really know why they are running away, or what they are running from.
Eldest sister Mary, at 11, knows only too well.
On the night of their escape, Mary rouses Angela, and youngest sister, Norma, nine. āIām running away. Youāre coming too. Letās go.ā
The Montgomery plan, although somewhat ambitious, is perfectly formed. They are going to walk for about a mile towards the picturesque Rhu marina, on the banks of Gareloch.
From there they will steal a boat and row it to Brazil, where they believe their merchant seaman father is working. Simple. They know where Brazil is because they have seen it on a map.
Mary decides not to take their little brothers, on account of them being too small.
Mr Barrieās hurting me
At the marina, they find a leaky rowing boat and struggle a few hundred yards out to sea. Shivering and scared, they are eventually rescued and taken to the police station.
āI donāt want to go back there,ā Mary pleads with the officer. āMr Barrieās hurting me.ā Her pleas fall on deaf ears, and not for the last time.
Our home
The children were awestruck by their beautiful surroundings including the buildingās tower which they planned to climb to watch their dadās ship come home.
Lagarie House was built in 1901 by the renowned Scottish architect AN Paterson and is a handsome mansion with wondrous views along the upper Firth of Clyde.
It was taken over by the Christian seafarerās charity, The British Sailorsā Society, as it was then called, in the late 1940s and was opened as a home for the families of seafarers in need of help with their children.
Donald Montgomery (right) with the Rev William Barrie and Mary Barrie
It had a huge dining room, three reception areas and six dormitories housing up to 40 children.
Several acres of land and wooded areas surrounded the house. It was 200 yards from the village of Rhu and a stoneās throw from the banks of the loch. It was truly idyllic.
The Rev William Barrie and his wife Mary arrived at Lagarie in late 1972 as the new, live-in superintendents of the home. Mr Barrie, who had been a minister of the Congregational Church, lived on the grounds in a cottage with his wife, about 30 metres from the main house. Hand-picked by the society, they boasted an apparently impressive pedigree of experience.
Within days of the Barries arriving, it was clear to some that life was never going to be the same again. Religion and discipline became the mainstay of the new regime. The Barriesā āpedigreeā seemed to involve ruling by fear and violence; stick or scholl in one hand, Bible in the other.
And soon, Donald Montgomeryās visits to his children became fewer and farther between.
Mrs Barrie
'If I screamed she'd
start punching me'
Heather Le Sommer, who worked at Lagarie in the early 1970s, said she noticed the change right away, seeing first-hand how violent Mrs Barrie could be when she assaulted a 10-year-old boy for making a mess in the corridor.
Heather said, āMrs Barrie came flying through a swing-door to my right, came up to this child and full force cracked him twice right down from the side of his face. I felt physically sick.ā
Heather left six months after the Barries arrived.
She says: āI couldnāt stay there. But I had no idea what lay in store for those children.ā
Angela recounts: āThe level of cruelty we were subjected to on a daily basis went way beyond the boundaries. She [Mrs Barrie] could have you on your bed, face in your pillow, pants whipped around your ankles, hands held together and pressed against your back, before you had time to blink. Then - in one deft movement - sheād remove her scholl, and several whacks later; your arse was glowing.
āWhen I wet the bed, sheād drag me through the corridors by the hair. I would pull down on her wrists to lessen my weight, fearing I was going to be scalped if I didnāt. The pain was horrendous. If I screamed, if I tried to fight back, this only fuelled her anger even more and sheād start punching me, kicking me, biting me. It was absolutely crazy.ā
Angela
More than a dozen former residents and staff claimed Mrs Barrie was a cruel, violent tyrant who spared few her wrath.
She would seek to punish and humiliate the children, especially those who were prone to bed-wetting, an indication, often, of childhood anxiety.
Even the youngest of Mrs Barrieās charges were not spared, according to Anne Munro, another former worker, who recalls the beatings meted out to a three-year-old girl.
āShe was leathered if she wet herself. Three years of age, there was no need for it. And Iām not talking about once a day, it was about three or four times a day with that one child.
āI never thought of intervening, I just stood there and watched her.ā On reflection, this makes her feel āterrible,ā she says. āI was only 17 at the timeā.
According to some accounts, Mrs Barrie reserved her worst for the older girls.
Mary believes she knows why. āShe must have known what her husband was doing. He was getting up out of bed at night to come into the home, into our room, to take one of us. She knew all right.ā
Mr Barrie
'It started with
a kiss goodnight'
Footsteps at night
'Part and parcel of
life at Lagarie'
Angela says: āI remember one night heād woken me up, took my hand and led me into the laundry room. He unzipped his trousers, shoved me onto my knees, andā¦ I wonāt say anymore.
āAnd when he was finished, he threw me aside. And I remember, because Iād peed myself, and I was lying on the floor, and he said I was disgusting.
āAnd I still couldnāt move, and then he just left. Nothing like that had ever happened before. I didnāt know that someone was supposed to do that to you.
āI didnāt want to tell Norma and Mary, because I felt embarrassed, because I didnāt know how to describe it. So I didnāt say.ā
āHeād work his way around,ā Angela says. āI remember several times seeing Norma going out, or Mary. In fact on one occasion, Mary moaned at me, and said, āWell, it is your turn, because I did it last nightā.
āAfter a while, even as unpleasant as it was - not that you got used to it - you just thought there was no point struggling or fighting. It became part and parcel of life at Lagarie.ā
Mary would later write about her memories and draw pictures. The drawings and poems are child-like, visceral, and unbearably sad.
āHe is here, I can hear him.
āHe is here, I can smell him.
āHe is here, I am hiding.
āHe is here!ā
Norma
The sisters would lie in bed at night, dreading the sound of Mr Barrieās approach.
His footsteps would crunch on the gravel between his cottage and the big house, and then his hand would turn the handle to their door.
Whose turn would it be tonight?
Trips away
'There was nowhere
safe for us'
Every year, the Barries would take the children on holiday to the Arbroath Convention, which was a religious festival held annually.
Angela and Norma had hoped it might be a holiday in every sense.
āWe thought he might have left us alone,ā says Angela. But he didnāt, she says, and neither did his friends from the British Sailorsā Society.
Both Norma and Angela separately describe nearly identical, multiple attacks, involving a man associated with the society, whom they believed to be a chaplain.
āI liked him. Heād ask me to put Bibles out. He seemed really friendly. Then one day he followed me into the toilet,ā says Angela.
She knew what had happened to me. She said nothing
In her front room in Helensburgh, less than two miles from Rhu, Norma, with one of her beloved cats by her side, talks about the man.
She knew him only by his surname, the name he used from the pulpit, when invited to speak at services by Mr Barrie.
Norma says that in the toilets of the Baptist church, close to where they were holidaying and minutes after giving a sermon, the man followed her in and raped her.
āMrs Barrie was there when I came out, and it was one of the rare times she was nice to me. I was sobbing, and she helped me clean up. She knew what had happened to me. She said nothing.ā
After the telling of this story, the cat looks up at Norma, as if offering support; she gently cuffs him away. āDonāt look at me, Charlie.ā
āHe knows Iām upset,ā she explains.
Normaās body is laced with scars, some are fresher than others. She started self-harming when she was at Lagarie. Now aged 55, she looks back at her turbulent life and says, quite simply, it was āruined by Mr Barrieā.
According to several accounts heard by Ā鶹Ō¼ÅÄ Disclosure, Mr Barrie was a prolific child sex abuser who used his position as a minister within the British Sailorsā Society to operate - or at least facilitate - a paedophile ring, with others connected to the organisation.
Please listen
'Mr Barrie is
hurting us!'
Stuart Rivers, who is head of the Sailors' Society - as it is now known - says the police were contacted about the allegations shortly after he took up his role in 2013.
He said: āItās a very dark time in the societyās history. I was deeply upset by it. I canāt change the past, but I can make sure that that we do things right now. I think no organisation would feel good about having this type of thing in their history.
āI was horrified when I heard these accounts. We do regret that any abuse happened and we have apologised unreservedly.ā
Mr Rivers said the charity is in touch with 18 survivors, and has provided counselling services to some of them. He called on other Lagarie residents to get in touch with him personally, and pledged his support to them.
You took a child full of hope and dreams
replaced her with a broken replica,
now unable to feel true happiness.
You are blind to the suffering you have caused.ā
A letter Mary wrote to her abuser, unsent.
Mary
After leaving Lagarie, Mary struggled to maintain a normal life as a new mother.
She moved to America but her children are still in Scotland. Though she is in constant touch, she has regrets. āI wish I could go back in time. Be able to go back and explain things a bit more. I regret I wasnāt a more hands-on mum.ā
Now the story of Lagarie is finally being told, the 57-year-old says she hopes it might help explain why she wasnāt able to have the kind of relationship with her children that they wanted.
Mary works as pre kindergarten teacher and loves every minute of it. āI will never be able to put what happened at Lagarie behind me. But itās not the first thing I think about anymore.ā
Norma
Normaās adulthood has at times been chaotic and punctuated by abusive relationships with men. She has five children and eight grandchildren, and is close to all of them.
She has battled mental illness throughout her life and sought escape by cutting herself.
The recent trauma of reliving the events of her childhood led to a breakdown and stay in hospital, from which she appears to be slowly recovering.
āI want my story told," she says.
āI want people to know what they did to us. I want the Sailorsā Society to know that Iāve been in hospital for the past month and what Lagarie has done to my life. I want them to know.ā
Angela
On leaving Lagarie Angela married quickly, but the marriage failed. She married again and had two children, whom she adores, though their father died young.
Over the years Angela too has struggled with her mental health. Diagnosed with PTSD, she suffers from extreme anxiety, but finds comfort in painting and music. She has learned to play guitar and harmonica through the various support groups she joined. The 56-year-old has a partner, Irvine, who dotes on her.
Several years ago, she attempted to confront her past by writing a book about Lagarie. She called it, āDeliver us from Evil.ā
Few have read this raw, unpublished account. But the story of the Montgomery sisters and their lifelong attempt to escape the horrors of Lagarie deserves to be told.
